• love, personal

    Online Dating My Way to Oblivion

    [caption id="" align="aligncenter" width="256"] source: techyville.com[/caption] Hi, my name is Christa Lei and I've been online-dating sober for about two weeks now. I used OkCupid on and off for about two years. During that time, I went on a countless amount of dates, hooked up with a number of men, navigated my way through a couple complicated friends-with-benefits situations, found myself in a long-suffering five month relationshit, fell absolutely apeshit in love with a...

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  • love, personal, travel, writing

    I see in Shades of Blue.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=50zkUclo-cw You listened to Joni Mitchell's Blue while you were abroad. Some might say you listened to it an unhealthy amount, but you beg to differ. Something about the timbre of her voice resonates with travelling, long distance train rides and loneliness. Because that's what the feeling really was, right? Loneliness? Familiar faces turned into remnants of their former selves. Travelling changes a person-- there's something about being alonenakedafraid that either helps their personality shine, or...

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  • food, love, personal, writing

    All Things Grow, All Things Grow…

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KFrG6S0GnhU Despite spending the majority of my formative years in beautiful Hawaii, I consider Chicago the place where I really "grew up." I started by wandering aimlessly through the crowds on State Street, and made my way towards the blustering winds on the bridges of River North. I found myself flirting with another Midwestern transplant over spicy Szechuan style hot pot in Chinatown, and all at once found myself making out with him in...

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  • love, personal

    Disregard the Hodgepodge.

    I straddle the fine line between "lonely" and "alone" quite a bit. These days, I'm creeping slowly towards "lonely," despite the people around. Falling out of love with someone is infinitely freeing, but also quite arresting once you think about it. You've built up these thoughts, invested your feelings and parts of your heart into this person-- and when you fall out of love with someone, it all goes away. It hits...

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  • personal

    sorry.

    I promise I'll be back to write more eventually. I'm in the process of getting over a lot of things (love, men, etc.) and trying to adjust to my new life. I don't know. I just feel stagnant.

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  • culture, love, personal, travel, writing

    Before/After.

    I finally finished Richard Linklater's Before trilogy: Before Sunrise (1995,) Before Sunset (2004,) and Before Midnight (2013.) If you haven't watched it yet, I'd suggest you do, in order. For those who aren't aware of what the Before trilogy is-- essentially, two twentysomethings meet on a train in Vienna and end up spending one beautiful night together. There have been two sequels, and the trilogy plays with the element of time and relationships: does timing...

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  • love, personal, writing

    ruminations: from time.

    Note: Readers, this blog post is inherently personal and really meant for someone. I'm posting it on here because it will explain a lot of how I'm feeling and it's my way of processing things as they happen. This also (perhaps) may be potentially offensive to anyone reading it. Don't say that I didn't warn you. [8tracks width="512" height="288" playops="" url="http://8tracks.com/mixes/4420881" align="center"] (Right, listen to that playlist while you read this.)...

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  • love, personal, writing

    claw marks & letting go

    "Everything I've ever let go of has claw marks on it."- David Foster Wallace Foster Wallace hit the mark when he wrote about letting go. As I've mentioned before, I'm a person who teeters on the edge of codependency in the majority of my relationships. I attribute this to my inherent "Libra"-ness, but I also think that I (secretly) enjoy human interaction and behaviour, despite my awful affinity for social...

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  • personal

    Some Updates

    Sorry, y'all. I'm working on a really positive post (good news! So excited to share it with you. Might be mundane and meaningless to you, but for me-- it's a pretty great thing and I'm excited to write about it and share it with you.) But I decided to write a post that would update you on my life and share some of my recent favourites! Firstly, thank you so...

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  • love, personal, travel, writing

    Home Sweet Home.

    As a recent post-grad, I (like many of my peers) moved back in with my parents. For the first couple of weeks it felt strange. After living in Chicago for as long I did alone (well, with a roommate-- but you know what I mean,) the lack of independence was stifling. Pair that with the laid back attitude of the islands, and transportation constraints: you've basically got my nightmare. However,...

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