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  • Block/Break.

    Jun 20th • Posted in personal, writing

    As a former Creative Writing minor, it isn’t fun to succumb to the evils of writer’s block. I can’t tell you how frustrated I get when I have it– but alas, it’s come to me again in the form of half-written blog posts. I’m comforted by the fact that I’m not forced to write fiction again– as I’ve been stuck in that rut for awhile. (Though inspiration did come to me again in the form of John Barth’s Lost in the Funhouse, which I recommend you all read despite its difficulty.) Anyway, I want to take the time to thank people for supporting my stream of consciousness and reading the blog. I want to take a break for a little bit to have experiences and refresh myself and gain some inspiration. I wrote at least a post a week for the past couple weeks, and I’m running dry for words right now.

    That being said, I also want to rethink my approach to blogging. Those of you who know me personally know that I’m brash, outspoken and fairly unfiltered. I will write anything and everything that comes to mind without editing myself. This causes people to either love me or hate me instantaneously, because the “shock value” might be too high for them. I try to anonymize people as much as possible if I’m speaking to dating and relationships, but for the most part, people know what they’re getting into when we become friends. That being said, I’m here to apologise to some of the men that I’ve talked about in the blogs, especially the ones that I’m friends with. I’m sorry if I’ve exposed too many intimate details about our encounters. I’m not always used to people reading my blog (though I do have people who read it, I look at my blog as a form of diary and release.)

    That being said, I’m not sorry for some of the things I’ve written about. Namely things about my ex-boyfriend and Brendan. Honestly, without writing those posts– I probably wouldn’t have learned more about myself and relationships. Through writing about that stuff, I realised I was in a failed relationship that I was trying to desperately talk myself out of, and how much idealising someone does not get them to love you back, no matter how hard you try. Writing through the pain is the most effective way to learn and gain something from it. However, I apologise to some of the other men that I’ve written about. While it was completely positive on my end, I know some of you feel uncomfortable with my inexplicable need for minute details. To that end, I’m sorry. I’ve extended to some of you (privately and personally) an apology, and an olive branch. That being said, if you want me to take anything I’ve said about you down, I will.

    Otherwise, time to refresh and experience life. Hopefully I’ll have enough experience to come back and write something more meaningful. See you on the other side!